Directon-less

I feel so lost. I have no direction and no goals. Even thinking about goals makes me feel exhausted. The person who came up with the saying, "just put one foot in front of the other" forgot to mention where the hell you place your foot in the first place.

I'm constantly lonely, always feeling like I'm missing out, and I always feel boring or embarrassing around other people. Then I get around other people and I'm completely uninterested and bored and all I can think about is being home alone with my dog again. I'm completely discontent with life but I don't know how to fix anything right now.

This is such a hard thing to go through. I feel like most people my age are enjoying bars or something. I'm just.... here. And it's not like I don't have any friends. I have plenty. I just choose to be alone because being around others exhausts me lately.

I don't know... I'm just rambling now. I just needed somewhere to type out my thoughts.