Update

Hello! It's been a while since I've written anything. Mostly because I don't know what to write. Life has been decent to me lately, and being alone and single has shown me a lot about myself in these past few weeks.
1) I take my loved one's problems and make them my own. I've always done this and I've realized that it's extremely unhealthy. I go to great lengths to take care of others problems and most of the time it's only a temporary comfort to them because in the end it's their own battle to win or lose. I can only numb the situation for a little while. Since I've realized this, I've stopped implanting my heart and soul into other's situations. I stand from afar and offer advice when asked. This has been hard for me because all I want to do is just save everybody. And I think my lack of "let me help save you" has caused a lot of my friends to think I don't care anymore. That's far from the truth, I'm just looking out for my own well being now. And I think that's hard for people to understand sometimes.
2) I don't know how to be single. I don't. I really don't. My whole life I've had a guy around. This might not make sense to some people who know me because lately I've been a hermit. I enjoy solitude. I enjoy being alone with my dog. I enjoy watching movies and reading and just sitting alone. However, for whatever reason, I need a man around-- even just a text, to tell me I'm pretty. To make me feel.... something, I don't know... I've really been trying to figure out why that is. As of right now it's still a work in progress, but I'm getting there.
3) I've stopped taking things personal. You don't text me back? I'm not offended. You don't invite me to your drunken party? Not offended. You make a rude ass comment about my looks? Don't mind. It's nice. Learning to not take things personally has been my saving grace lately. I've learned that if you choose to believe people aren't intentionally trying to hurt you, even if they are, your life becomes exponentially easier to bear. STOP TAKING THINGS PERSONAL. I swear to God you'll be much happier.

I could write more but I just wrote a novel so I'll save the rest for a later time. Just know that I'm okay. I'm learning to love myself.