I've found it's hard to keep up with my blog lately. I got a lot of response when I was heartbroken and sad, but now that I'm pretty much through with all of that, it seems like people aren't really responding to my writing as often. It's been bumming me out but then I remembered that I started this blog for ME, to get my emotions and feelings out of my head and on to paper (or screen).
Things have been steady. I still really like the girls I work with, but I'm trying to find another job with a better schedule/pay. Till then I'm still enjoying it. Autumn and I move in to our place in 11 days and I could not be more thrilled. I can't freakin' wait.
I also started a meal/work out plan today, which got me really excited. I'm not counting calories or sticking strictly to the diet, but I'm cutting out the bad sugars and foods completely from my diet and making sure to exercise daily. I'll be a good thing. I've been feeling really bad about myself lately and I think this will help.
I seem to be going through a lot of emotions lately. One minute I'm bummed about a lot of things and the next I'm super inspired and excited. I don't usually have such wishy-washy feelings, so I've been trying to pinpoint where this is coming from. My best guess is just that I don't feel very settled at all right now. Hopefully within the next few weeks that all changes.
I've also noticed that I've been pretty lonely lately. I'm lonely for a man's attention. I'm not used to not having it. Once I realized that I was craving male attention it made me laugh. The whole reason I came to Arizona was to work on ME, not someone else. It's hard to break habits, though. I do think that life has perfect timing for the most part, and when I'm ready for love it'll find me.
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