Surprise

GREETINGS FROM CHICAGO!

I've been wanting to blog about coming to Chicago for so long, but it was a surprise trip for my good friend Mikelle. Her husband, Brandon, and I have been planning this for a few weeks. I'm such a freak about surprising people. I usually get so excited that I tell them the surprise before it even happens. But I kept this one the whole time and it was so worth it. I woke up at 3 AM, got on the first plane to Minneapolis where I met Brandon who was coming back from a work thing, and we got on our flight to Chicago. Surprising Mikelle was so worth the wait.

I've been here 3 days and it's hard. I think I've said this before, but facing your fears and getting out of your comfort zone is nothing like the movies. It's not new and exciting. It's uncomfortable and filled with doubts and nerves. At least for me, anyway. I mean, it's been fun. My first trip on my adventure to find myself... but it's still weird. Not being able to drive places, not having a job, ya know... it's just hard to uproot yourself from all you know and plant yourself somewhere else. I really struggled with it when I moved to Arizona. I need a strong sense of home and I'm trying to make that place be within myself, I'm just not really sure if that's possible.

It is pretty fun to not know where I'm going to be next week or what I'm going to do next. I think life is meant to be lived that way. What's the fun in planning all the time? No expectations... it's good. I think it's healthy. Really, it's just crazy to think that I quit my job, sold my things, and moved the rest back to my mom's, jumped on a plane, and came to a completely different state. Who the hell does that?

The past few days have been full of cloudy days, tons of alcohol, and tons of food. It's been great. I finally made my bed and put away my things to try and feel a little more settled, and it helped a lot. I have to say I'm really proud of myself for doing this. I'm really thankful for all my friends and family that are supporting me in doing this. I'm the luckiest girl alive.