Things have been weird for me lately. And I can't write much about it now because too many people read this thing and it might hurt feelings. I'm frustrated that it would hurt people's feelings because I'm not honest with people. Not in a "I can't ever tell the truth" kind of way, just more of a "I hate to make you feel bad" kind of way. I'll fake my happiness if it means someone else is happy. It gets exhausting and I get resentful. I've done this my whole life. So today I had a long talk... with myself.. and decided I need to stop what I'm doing and slow down for a minute.
I've been so focused on getting out and being social again that I forgot how much I benefit from taking some time and being alone. I'm trying to figure out this balance thing out and it's fucking hard.
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