Home

We're all moved in! We've still got a few things we need to get and things we need to hang on the walls, but all the moving and cleaning is DONE. I'm so relieved to say that. Holy crap. First of all, the apartment was smoked in, so we literally took a mop to the walls. The place wasn't clean at all, so we spent all of Friday deep cleaning it. Saturday was spent moving all our stuff and situating it, then Sunday my step dad came down with a trailer full of my stuff that I've accumulated over the years PLUS a couch they gave us for free (best parents ever, I know). It still smells kinda like smoke despite our valiant efforts and numerous scentys/candles, so if anyone has tips or tricks-- let me know! I had the weekend off, but it doesn't really feel like I've gotten to rest.

It doesn't quite feel like "home" yet, but I'm sure it's just because we just moved in and haven't settled into it yet. Today was my first real 8 hour shift at my new job. The medical field is crazy busy and super complex. I was feeling a little in over my head, but the women I work with are super patient and welcoming, so it settled me down a little bit. I'm really thankful I found this job.

Because we were moving all weekend and it was Autumn's birthday, I've really slacked on my eating habits. I feel like all my work and progress was for nothing. I'm still doing the exercises, but it sucks feeling like this. I'm kind of in between the whole "be fit and healthy" and the "treat yoself" thing. I think my whole thing is that exercise and eating healthy is super important, but if I want a brownie I'm going to have one, damnit. Life is to be enjoyed and that brownie is going to help me enjoy it even more, right?!

Ahh, anyway... I'm still feeling pretty unsettled and stuff. It's been going on for quite awhile. Like I said before, I think it's just that I don't have a sense of "home", which is important to me. Moving to Arizona, I expected to feel unsettled at first, but I feel like it's been a pretty long time of feeling like I don't really belong anywhere. I'm okay, just a strugglin' a little. I know as long as I keep my thoughts positive and my personal love for myself going, I'll be okay.


Thanks for still reading,
Rylee